This final year is really a crux in my life(but not the only high point). It's the year where some important things head towards resolution. This is the final year I'll be in a school uniform(and transition into another one), and the year I'll be taking a piano recital diploma exam again. Probably the last piano exam I'll be having for quite a while because I don't know if I'll be able to pursue further in it. To prepare for a piano degree? Hmm...
Like I probably said before, I used to relate a skill in piano and music to performance careers alone, but now I'm not too sure about the feasibility of that any more. I considered other somewhat related careers, perhaps teaching or composition or sound engineering...? I'm still uncertain. I see many classmates, past and present, who are really sure of the path they're taking and are actively taking major steps towards their goals. I don't see such a clear path yet. If their paths are illuminated with gold bricks towards lighthouses, mine is one that leads into a foggy forest with no end in sight.
2012 is certainly a year to be reckoned with. Economists predict a recession looming. Chinese horoscope predicts for those born in the Year of the Dog a year with quite some predicaments. Things don't look so bright this time. Not like in my past 10 years in primary and secondary school where I could still get away with things and not pay heavily for it. And yet I know that the end of 2012 would also mean the end of other things that I've depended on for so long and valued a lot. As well as the start of other things that I dread...
Now I can't decide whether I want time to go faster or slower...
